Thursday evening, October 17, 2013
Can't believe it's been over two years since I've written here. The good news is I was busy editing manuscripts for some very talented writers who have since published their works. Yay!
What's been on my mind quite a bit lately is the concept of friendship. I want to understand both this world of being an older person and alone and having only casual friends and acquaintances for support. In particular one friend turned out to be more of a good, nice acquaintance than a real friend. I sensed this from the start, but laziness or wishful thinking caused me to often want more from her only to get frustrated later. Sigh.
Anyway, what's bothering me is this acquaintance is obsessed with men. She talks about them more than about anything else. She chases them, even if they have a significant other. If we run into one while we're out, she leaves me, often without a word, to be with him. Unfortunately, I once told her that at our age life is too short not to be with someone if that's what we want. (Or some variation -- I can't remember my exact words, but she has reminded me of them after ditching me!)
What I can't understand is why her behavior bothers me. I think part of the reason is that she rarely asks about me other than an initial inquiry. And I'm really more interested in spending quality time with her, not spending it talking about men, including how wonderful they think she is. Which is what she loves to stress -- how wonderful and special, etc. all the men think she is.
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Well, that went nowhere. While I was struggling to write, the phone rang and it was someone who'd called because she was concerned I had not returned her call of last week. So, I took it. A little over an hour later, here I sit, in a different frame of mind. Sigh. Maybe another time I can redress the issue above since it bothers me often.
Anyway, my thoughts are all a jumble now (new and old issues competing for my emotional attention -- big sigh).
'Nite
